About Me...
Who I be: Chocolatezeus the one and only
nickname: Chocolate Daddy, BishopDonJuan, Zeus
sex: All man
interests: travelling, cooking, reading, writing and the movies
come from: Home of the Dirty South...North Carolina
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Tuesday, April 12, 2016
What can I say I am new and dumb.
I let a feeling get in the way of how D/s should have been. I let what I thought was going to be felt the same way be an influence.
And now I have the one thing all Dominants have spoke against. A female with 2 dominants. And this is what she wanted from the beginning. And I played right into the fucking shit. Kudos for me.
This is the day I realize just how fucked up shit is.
It is also the day I truly understand and realize that dating doesn't mean shit. Relation with a human doesn't mean shit.
There will be no respect from other Dominant's after this shit.
Fuck it!Labels: fucked up D/s shit, I can't believe I let this shit happen, you can't have two doms
8:11 PM
Thursday, April 07, 2016
There is no misnomer that I hate dating profusely. I couldn't stand it before I was married and after being happily married I detest dating even more.
There is no real rhyme or reason for the bullshit that females come up and put someone through to make them feel good enough to give someone a chance.
Tonight illustrated that completely.
One said: She has to do text dates with the person and they have to keep her interest and keep texting. Then she will decide to do phone dates. Then maybe move on to an actual date some months down the line after that.
Another says: She will just date but there will not be any emotion or feeling involved. And fears being open emotionally and feeling wise. So jump through those hoops just in case you are told you are worthy enough to provide something. The disconnected feeling and all reward approach.
And there is the: We just talk and maybe see other for some years since there is no time limit. I might be comfortable enough to decide I want to keep seeing you and at least tell you I like you a bit more now. And we will just go along meandering until something happens or get tired of this going nowhere approach.
Females get mad in their feelings when I say, "you are just making sure that a man jumps through hoops for you so you can make sure you are in your comfortable spot and get what you seek." Saying, "make me happy and maybe I will want to be with you and feel something for you. And if you are exceptional really, really like you."
Dating has become the hurry up wait and hope you win the lottery game. Females claiming they think like men. And men knowing that it is a fucked up situation that they are in if they speak to females and want anything meaningful with them anyway.
Everyone wants to claim it is about being with someone. Yet their actions and responses are robotic and everyone has the Ultraman light on their chest beeping. Ready and needing to fly far away immediately.
Dating is a fucking, bullshit mess.
11:54 PM
Tuesday, April 05, 2016
of course there is nothing similar about females and then there are similar things. This contradictory statement is the embodiment and cornerstone of the esrogen laden individuals.
Even asked the things that create a females interest in me there is a big consensus and then there are the anomalies. Both are things that vex most individuals daily. Even hourly.
Most females don't want directness when it comes to interest in them. But they want you to be direct the other times.
Most want to take it slow but don't lose interest as decades past.
lol, females are the chinese finger puzzle with a torturous ending mostly.
Add to that dating them and you have a sliding rule scale of rules, regulations and things that you are not going to understand mostly.
In being a submissive most females want the title and the benefits but want to be able to have this one and that one as they choose. And their lack of focus grows until it implodes it all.
So, you choose to play or you abstain from their games and crazy things.
You take what you can and discard the rest that don't work. Learn and grow and don't look back.
Basically, it is the only way.
12:33 AM
Monday, January 11, 2016
So after a year of ups and downs I ended up in a poly situation. Not like I had with the greensboro bitch and new bern craziness. At least for a little while they understand and knew their roles effectively.. They knew that it was about me. And yeah they were married and I didn't give a fuck about their husbands but oh fucking well. I didn't care about them fucking outside of their husbands there was not going to be any emotional attachments but to me.
The difference is now that all three of these subs want to be dating, emotionally attached to others. Hell, the one I have been dating will probably be fucking her exes at some point this year. the greensboro sub was already in her poly stuff. And asked me about meeting the guy she is seeing. I am like wtf do I need to do that for? All that I want you to be a full part of my life and me in yours shit. the new york one just wants a boyfriend because I don't see her that often.
Here is the reality of the situation. If they want to do this have a relation only up to a point but want the full monty then they are going to get what little bit they want. There is no need for me to give all of me to individuals that are not focused upon me. That's fucking righ..centered on me. Because it is time for me to be fully selfish and happy.
So right now i will keep the three of them until I decide otherwise. But there is no A1 service when they are putting in a C effort.
People that only see the wonderful and exciting side of being poly need to be pimped slapped. It is not all glamorous when you have to deal with 3 different attitudes, moods, hormones and personalities. Juggling them and their needs getting met and making sure that they are on the tracks that they need to remain on is use of an awful lot of force. Both mentally and on the astral plane.
The good and the bad and the ugly is all here.
This shit is not for the weak asses!!Labels: chocolatezeus, Poly is not easy
10:54 AM
Monday, August 07, 2006
Attacking Me: Happiness Revealed
Finally satisfaction has hopefully been received
The continual vindication truly relieved
Sadly this whole episode some how justified in your mind
Gladly maybe it will end this time
For I tire of taking responsibility for the things that are not mine
Told how it compares to what I have done
Obviously your mind has been unspun
For you putting our shit on blast helped no one
Simply gave them more to comment on
Why did I even get surprised even for a moment?
To think that would be enough for you to end that moment
No you had to take it further than that
Use my real name so you could continue the trash
Well my BEING A MAN caused this stupid backlash
For the heart and love
I sacrificed once again myself
A sacrifice for what
For someone to make the worse out of the situation even more dire
Thus the meaning and understanding of
Loving someone
So the attack happened
I left myself open to right a wrong which wasn’t all mine
One that was from the interpretation of others
Yet I took the blame because it was from my writings
And as usual had it taken to Hell and further
So with this new attack
I hope that she has found her true happiness
That her vindication and revenge satiated
So this will be my last episode of placating
I have taken way more than my share of
Responsibility
Torture
Ridicule
Sarcasm
And grief
From all this
If she is not satisfied then that is her eternal life that will suffer
Not mine
So let her attacks continue if she wants
For now I have done my part
And any further assaults I will respond with ferocious candor
The time of meekness has come to an end
My apologies and regret has been casted and spun
Now there is no more to be done
Now there will be a counter attack
If I am the subject of another attack by her or anyone.
From the Chocolatezeus collection 8/3/06 ©
11:46 PM
Saturday, July 22, 2006
Must Be Nice
I found you
My diamond in the rough
A total coincidence
Yet something that I learned I couldn’t easily give up
Growing into the formidable two that we are
You held me down, even when I was dragging the ground
Fought through it all
From the fights to side splitting falls
Come home to you
Knowing that you were there
Greeted with that gifted smile
Even if it took a little while
Maybe it easy to always come home
To get rid of the thoughts to roam
My Baby was right there at home
See…
Pussy is what it is…something to get into, something to do
But what I got is what makes me happy at home
When life has come completely apart
My strength lays in your hands
My heart and soul has left me
You are there to brace it all together
To keep everything together
For I am not invincible
Nor is life all that sensible
Many times I have been left defenseless and expendable
You stayed by my side just holding on
You… the strong woman
Is why I love where I belong
Here with you in my arms
Or walking along laughing with your loud tone
For no matter our faults or issues
Acceptance was a must
To peas of different strands
Yet in our Unique pod was simply Marvelous US
No one could understand us
My wifey
Mother of my unborn
Here upon your bosom is where I rest during the storms
No need for party scenes
I continue chilling at home with my queen
Lets laugh and talk
Play and profess our life’s interests
You are my only FAMILY interest
Life ahead of me benefits
God’s blessings represented
No wonder I am content
Happy no matter what the incident
Knowing we can make it through any event
Our Union the TRUE REPRESENTATIVE
From the chocolatezeus collection 7/17/06 ©
10:28 AM
Monday, June 12, 2006
I imagine my heart with you
Imagine my life with you
Smiling giving me happiness
So hard to contain
Not to see what you bring out in me
The heart beating
Eye gleaming
Understanding
I imagine my heart with you
Imagine my life with you
Can't survive without you
Then realize it is all true
What I sought
Now found
Thankfully
I wear that crown
Upon this thrown built for two
Me and You
9:39 PM
Gung ho to make everything work
Leading headstrong into the waves
Not a care at all except being there for them all
No man left behind my call
That was the sunrise of everything
Relationships at their beginning Mt Everest
For then all graces were extended
Disputes quickly mended
Twilight came and I realize the truth about things
That reality wasn't being maintained
That apparently there was this END GAME
One that I wasn't playing
Giving way to clouded days
False rays equalling the false perpertrators
The sunset came
Clearing the rain
Seperating the necessary down the drain
Allowing my life to transform and remain
Giving way to a true cleansing
Now I stand upon the presipice
Guided by the moonlit night
A full moon my werewolf cry and guide
All relationships in place
from the chocolatezeus collection 6/12/06 (c)
A new Mt Everest
from the chocolatezeus collection 6/12/06 (c)
8:13 PM
My Heart Goes With You
No matter where you go
No matter what you do
My heart goes with you
Being a man
Taking the hated role
All to make things better
Actions and thoughts
Sometimes seemingly a court jester
Yet I am a fool for you
One that will throw myself out for you
Buried here under it all
I have taken a few falls
Yet still
My heart
Soul
and body
Goes out to you
from the chocolatezeus collection (c)
7:59 PM
Life has given me so much to contemplate and think about.
Now it is time to unfurl the new setting
A new life
A new journey
Composed of the past and future
Made up of the old and the new
Simple Chocolatezeus
A myriad of who and what is who
7:50 PM